Who am I? That’s a big question to ask oneself and how do you answer it? A member of the human race? One of the millions of humans inhabiting this planet? Just another person trying to survive life? I guess the answer defines the person.
You could break the answer down into words, therefore, I am a:
Human, Male, Father, Youtuber, Thinker, Fixer, Englishman, Morose.
But it does not capture who I am but just gives an inkling into the many facets of who I am. Hang on… Morose?
It’s a word first introduced to me by Captain, My Captain, Robin Williams in Dead Poets Society, a movie I was fond of as a younger man.
sullen and ill-tempered.
synonyms: sullen, sulky, gloomy, bad-tempered, ill-tempered, dour, surly, sour, glum, moody, ill-humored, melancholy, melancholic, brooding, broody, doleful, miserable, depressed, dejected,
despondent, downcast, unhappy, low, down, grumpy, irritable, churlish, cantankerous, crotchety,
cross, crabby, cranky, grouchy, testy, snappish, peevish, crusty
Wow, I am the “life of the party” am I not. If left unchecked, my mood will gravitate as if its almost a default setting to run at this level.
I have many things to be happy about but I generally default to some of the above, I know not if being on the Autism Spectrum as I suspect I am, is a factor or not but I can generally find myself using one or more of but seldom all of the above to describe who I am, therefore, I thought an exploration of happiness may be in order and I wanted to share my journey with you.